Some people who become chronically ill and/or disabled can point at a calendar at the date when their life changed. For others it is much more gradual. Initially I just thought I was worn out from a busy weekend, then thought maybe I was fighting off a cold, then realized something didn’t seem right but maybe a doctor could fix it, and then eventually, over time, it started to seem like it wasn’t going to go away any time soon. I also keep making connections to brief spells of symptoms at several other times in my life long before things got bad that seem like they could be related, so I can’t really pinpoint exactly when I got sick. What I can do is point at a calendar at the last day I felt good, healthy, energetic. And that day was five years ago today.
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Am I Still One of the Millions Missing?
May is ME/CFS Awareness Month.
A year ago I suspected that I had POTS and was waiting to be tested and seen by an autonomic disorders specialist, but I thought it was a likely diagnosis in addition to the probable ME/CFS I thought I had. No one seemed comfortable officially diagnosing me with ME/CFS, but I had doctors bring it up and agree that it seemed likely it was what I had, and my experiences in the patient community made me feel like I had found people who “got it.”
Last year I was involved with a local group of activists planning and organizing a Millions Missing visibility action in my city to raise awareness for ME/CFS and call for more research funding. I volunteered to print posters and brought multiple pairs of tagged shoes to represent people who were unable to make it to an event near them either because there wasn’t one close by or because they were bed- or housebound by their symptoms. I also put out a pair of shoes for myself to represent the life I was missing due to my own disabling symptoms.
This year I’m not so sure where I stand. (Postural pun unintended for once, but sure.)